when objective doesn't meet

I made an effort to at least have a chance to see you again.

We were just talking yesterday that i will try, you will try; we will try, and that's what i did today.

I didn't even hint or say that you didn't try at all.

And what did i get instead?

A fking scolding and lecture from you, that i can't take general reasoning.

What is this? I was merely asking.

I was just trying my luck and asking if there's a possibilty.

I come in peace.

I'm tired. I'm sick of this. Again.

You made my day man.

TTYM.

Is this all a mistake?

deja vu

Went to the Botanic Gardens for photography in the morning. Somehow, i like this shot that he took.

I finally said it. And it doesn't feel good at all.

It feels like deja vu all over again.

Dilemma dilemma dilemma.

christmas eve

It's the eve of Christmas.

All the lights are shining, sleigh bells are ringing.

I won't ask much for this Christmas.

There isn't even a list.

Just that small little wish.

christmas at the mother hen's nest

Christmas party at Huei & Sam's house yesterday with DCMD 01 peeps, lecturers and gareth.

Yes, i looked like an elf with greens and red, but so what? (:

Good food, great company, cosy place, what more can you ask for to celebrate Christmas? I even got an adorable yellow banana pencil case from the gift exchange.
The only thing i can complain about, is that a christmas tree is missing. Hahaha! Nevertheless, it was a BLAST!

As usual, disappointment again.

I'm not happy.

Catsie fetish

Heh. I just realised that i have a sudden fetish for cats, since all my recent posts are about them.

Had another squash gathering, and this time, a christmas party at Joseph's house last friday. And his house was HUGE, has a big white dog, and a cute cat called Ginger. Haha. Spent most of my time there chasing after the cat :P

Meet Ginger.

And i just stole the above 2 pictures of Ginger from yingshan's blog. It's so adorable, i couldnt resist. And i wasnt torturing Ginger! She likes it so much that she didnt move at all! Heh :p

So we played games there and stuff. And had this gift exchange thingy, and i got this mickey mouse cup. Haha, overall, we had fun. Only remembered laughing non stop during the games. Another Christmas party coming up tomorrow with my class peeps at Ms Huei's house. Woo! Hopefully she and Mr Sam rears a cat too.

A reunion dinner at my grams yesterday.

I'm getting very tired.

meow

I'm in love with things that meow.

An awfully adorable tabby cat resting on the letter boxes. Often seen roaming around my block. Prolly a neighbour's. It's so cute that it used its paw to tab on my camera lens. Awww..

It's a clandestine love affair ♥

blabbers

Have been slacking my time away for this entire week. Somewhat have been reminding myself that i should have at least a week rest before starting on my assignments again. And now, that one week has past, it's time to suffer again. Sigh

Spent my weekends mostly with my family. Stayed at home for the entire Saturday afternoon to have a photo shooting session with my gummy bears. Haha. Love the photos, and here's one preview.

Went to my grams place at Queenstown later in the evening, and caught some unglam cats in the act. Hahaha. Hella cute.

Went to Vivo's Tung Lok to celebrate my gram's 79th birthday. Even saw Garry and Weilin with her HorHor there. Hahaha. Spent the rest of the day searching for the perfect queen size bed for my room, but still cant seem to find one. Oh well.

isolation

It has been 2 weeks now, and it kinda sucks.

I bet you don't even know what's going on in my life for the past few days.

It's all sore and puffy right now.

Before you know it, everything will be gone.

Gone with the wind.

SCM's photos

Heh. Got the marathon's photos from reen, and also from the marathon-photos website. And here they are.

Completed the race at a time shorter than we expected.

Covered 21km in 3 hours and 36 mins.

Taken at like 6am before everything started. My marathon partner for 2 years! (:

And yeap, we were wearing men's jersey, cause they had ran out of women's men. Yeah, we were complaining at first, but kinda glad that we got the men's after looking at the women's jersey, even though its so long that you can hardly see my shorts. Haha..
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Went to collect my passport with my family this morning. Headed down to Vivo to grab some gummy bears for my photography assignment. Then went to Ikea to look at some queen size bed. Haha..going to revamp my bedroom. Me and my sis have already started painting it red and white. Hopefully can finish this week. Even bought new wall lights and stuff. Woo!

Went back to school for squash training after that. Getting boring though. :/

Insignificant?

run run run

As usual, my sucky photos taken by my hp camera again. Quailty sucks huh. But oh well, im depesrate. Haha. Shall upload the other photos in reen's cam when i get them. (:

Ran the Standard Chartered Marathon this morning with reen. Had to wake up at 4 to reach there by 6.
Running a total of 21.1km was quite an experience. All the muscle aches and pains on my back and legs are kinda worth it, though i have trouble walking and sitting down properly now. Looking forward to every drink station with 100 plus and bananas. Heh.

The collection point for the baggage was somehow super duper uber muddy, perhaps cause it rain the night before? But there were already tentage and stuff. But anyway, my shoes were like super muddified.

Holidays are finally here! Woo!

But as usual, im flooded with assignments. Oh well...

when was the last time we actually spend quailty time together?

a nice end to the week

i tried to save the weekend from the bad state it was already in.

somehow, it turned out what i least expected.

effort and time i have put in.

Fabulous.

And i actually spent all 7 days in this week in school.

Sheesh.

A spoonful of worms

Creating typography using photography.

Went to that ulu grass patch behind the squash courts to do some digging...

with my fellow garderner.

And we made some new friends along the way.

And murdered a few too.

It was a bloody scene.

Though it is not part of our exercise, but this is my favourite shot of the day.

Disappointment

Somehow, i'm still feeling disappointed and angry at myself for doing such a sucky job for my DS assignment painting. And it doesn't help to see and admire the other 10 pretty paintings. Before i even start painting, i already knew it won't turn out nice. Perhaps i'm asking too much from myself. I kept reminding myself that i can't be good in every single thing. But since others can do it, why can't i? Still, i suck.

I better score well for my next few assignments if i want to get my aimed GPA score. Stressed and tired i may be, but i won't feel satisfied if i don't get what i wanted.

Just realised that my Marigold squash match is at 11am tmr, instead of 2.30pm. Getting that shitty feeling. Keeping my fingers crossed >.<

Birthdays

Went to Bottle Neck Village for dinner to celebrate my 2 sisters' and cousin's birthdays, who happen to fall on the 24th and 25th of December. Didn't quite enjoy the dinner there though. Felt that it's too heavy for me. And pardon me for the poor quality photos. They are taken with my lousy 2.0 mega pix phone cam, with night mode on.

Went to visit my aunt at Chong Pang after that. And meet the cute cat, Kye.

Sometimes, i'm really very irritated.
If only sensitivity can be donated.

I'm no painter

DS assignment is finally over.

I'm No Painter.

But still, i totally screwed up my painting. Not satisfied with my work at all. Chose the wrong colour for my river, and ended up spoiling the whole painting. Its nicer if i left it plain white, or a lighter colour. Shouldnt have paint when im like already so tired and high. Stayed overnight in school, together with about 7 others to paint on Thursday. Tired. Didnt sleep for 2 days. Sigh.

But anyway, since i cant sign into the class blog, here are some of CY's retarded photos. Haa. Took them while we were so tired and high, as though we're on drugs. Haha..

Marigold Squash Competition next Tuesday at 2pm. I'm all prepared, to lose.

Monday Blues

Went to a Squash BBQ to Kenneth chen's house on Friday after school, at some Flynn estate at Pasir Panjang. Guess it was suppose to be fun, but somehow....oh well.

Went to celebrate alfie's birthday on Saturday. Baked my yummy famous cupcakes for him on Friday morning before school and passed it to him before school started. Heh..nice riight??

Booked 2 tickets to the Singapore Flyer as his birthday gift, and he loved it :D

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The same scary thing happened to me again this morning. Was on my way to school, on the train, and as usual, it was pretty crowded. As it was approaching Jurong East, that sickening feeling came again, except this time, with a tummy ache, and i know its not the shitty kind. I started perspiring cold sweat, like really perspiring. And i think my whole face turned pale, since that always happened in the past. Then i got so giddy, that everything before me was like really white. And at Jurong East station, more people got on the train. As i was standing at the corner and got surrounded, i almost had difficulty breathing. Kept telling myself to tahan abit more till i reach Clementi. Fortunately, i managed to survive and ran out of the train at Clementi and sat down to steady myself. Was feeling so cold. Feels like deja vu everytime this happens. This feeling feels so familiar that i know when is it going to come. Argh!

I can even remember clearly when it happened to me in the past. Twice in primary school, once in secondary school, twice in JC, and now again. Sigh..

After i was feeling much better, i went ahead to Dover and rushed to the toilet. I think i stayed in there for like 20 mins? Somehow, my stomach hurt really badly. Was soooo in pain that i could barely walk, so i stayed in there till i was feeling alittle better.

Was consulting Ms Huei about my photos for the Photography Competition. Her opinions are like the total opposite from Ms Shirlyn's luh. Who to listen to mann?? Rah..and my consultation eat into my IDS lesson for like half an hour. Decided to skip lesson and go home early to start on my painting.

Hmmm..still indecisive on whether should i go squash training tomorrow. There's a friendly match with JJC tmr, and my competition is next week. But i think i have to bring a luggage to school tmr if i were to go training luh. Have to bring my big canvas, paints, laptop, shoe bag and my racket. Rah..how to carry them all??

And it was raining pretty heavily today. Some Monday this in to start of my week huh. Thanks.
And i have yet to recieve my pay for the promoter job that i worked! Rahhhh!!!

Who wants to run 21km with me in the Stand Chart Marathon?? >.<